Saturday, September 15, 2007

on and off

There will be a real post later this week. But until then, I supply you with some fluff.

1. vodka martinis with extra olives
2. dairy
3. wheat
4. raw veggies
5. running
6. sugar
7. coffee
8. real coke
9. not giving a damn, because if I'm going to get pregnant, I doubt the consumption of the above will stop me.
10. being happy because i'm no longer depriving myself of the above delicious items.
11. better sex with the husband
12. this could be because i bought this. what can i say? it was on the way to the produce on the end of the aisle. impulse buy.

1. acupuncture
2. being told "we don't know what's wrong with you, but man, you are way messed up"
3. "your tounge is coated and the tip is red. here, buy these expensive herbs of unknown origin and take three times a day, and you will feel so much better."
4. worrying about whether or not I'm doing the right thing as i throw the herbs out.
5. being scared to hold a baby because i might cry
6. being scared to persue more tests and treatments because i'm scared of the outcome.
7. being scared in general of the whole infertility monster
8. identifying my self worth with my inability to have a baby


My Reality said...

I am glad your impulse purchase has provided some inspiration!

Carrie said...

That's a great list. I'm coming round to that way of thinking right now too. Trying so hard to do everything right=no baby. Well, maybe it's time to kick back and grab some enjoyment back from life?

I'm glad you're leading the way.

SaraS-P said...

Yes, please keep enjoying yourself!

Geohde said...

#8 in 'off' is one I have a real problem with, personally. It feels like such a fundamental flaw in my makeup.

Great lists :)



niobe said...

ooooo....I love the skirt. I'm sure your husband loved it even more.

Sarah said...

this is a real post. it says much more than a list implies. i so totally relate to your "offs" and wish you well in letting them go...they need to go, as you know. and as for your ons, i agree with #9 100%. here's to enjoying more!

Ms. Planner said...

Does #11 in your "ON" list have anything to do with #12?


I so loved your list. I stopped taking my herbs, too. If they haven't worked in 6 months, I taking them is magically going to get me knocked up.

The little plaid number? Now that definitely has knock-me-right-up potential. Tee hee.

Sticky Bun said...

Hear! Hear! On #9 especially. We get ourselves so convinced that every little thing we do must be controlled, even when controlling those things doesn't seem to make a difference. Wishing you the best on making the most of this list!

The Oneliner (Christina) said...

SING IT SISTER. I admire you're guts to call bs when you see it. I think TCM accu people pray on infertiles. its really annoying when they say things like "these herbs will help keep the baby in..." WTHeesy?
I'm inspired...i'm going to cancel my accu appointment pronto. Which I was thinking about doing anyway. You go girl.

Sitting in Silence said...

Oh I hear you on impulse buys....

You go girl !!