Saturday, March 22, 2008

coming to an amusement park near you - the IVF rollercoaster.* UPDATED

What a last few days. I wanted to wait to update until I had a clearer picture of what's going on in there.
Monday (9dt3dt) I couldn't take it anymore. I had to go to the drugstore to pick up my M.etformin and had to go inside to get some lip balm. If I could've gone through the drive thru I think I would've been ok. Of course, I chose to walk down the aisle where things like tampons, pads and - oh yes! those things - are kept. In a haste, I bought a box of generic tests. I thought I could sneak a test once home without D knowing (he is anti testing early) but whaddaya know, he is HOME. At like 5:00. I can count on one hand the times he's been home that early. He saw them in the bag and gave me this disapproving look. Undeterred, I tested.


It was positive almost immediately, and very visible but still light. In the afternoon. 3 days before my beta.



I didn't take one Tuesday.



Wednesday morning, it was darker, but it was in the morning.



Thursday morning, it was maybe slightly darker than Wednesday, but not by much.



My beta on Thursday (12dp3dt) was 257.

My progesterone was "well over 40, and we don't take a measurement over 40", as the doctor said when he called - I mean, WTF? I need to know that number - and my estrodiol was +2,000 which is like insane freakishly high. So, I am down to one estrace tablet a day instead of two and stay on 1cc of PIO a day.

Today, I went in for my repeat beta. It needed to be 514 to double within 48 hours. OF COURSE, in true tipsymarie fashion, it was 492. Just shy of doubling. OF COURSE I was feeling confident and ok with that first number only to get this news today. I know rationally it could still be ok, but I would just like some peace of mind if not for a little while. I go back next week for another beta.

One thing I've already considered is that both implanted and one did not make it, hence the high first beta and would also explain the almost but not quite double for the second beta.

Please, please let this be ok.

*Speaking of an IVF roller coaster, how about the trains shaped like giant sperm? And a cave along part of the tracks shaped like a uterus? Classy, no?

Updated to add:

Sorry to get all whiny titty baby on you all. I realize we are very lucky to have even gotten this far. After flinging myself about in a fit of ridiculous self pity and incessant worry all day long I came to the conclusion that it is very, very early and this is to be expected. Please.let.it.be.ok.

25 comments:

Newt said...

Ack! Roller coaster is right!

Congratulations, and I hope like hell that the news stays good. It only has to increase 60% in 48 hours, right? Or is that later?

I know how agonizing those ambiguously mostly good numbers can be, and hope yours stay in the "spectacular" column for the rest of a long, healthy 9 months. I'll be checking in, and holding my breath for you.

My Reality said...

Your betas are fantastic! I am so happy to read this news!

Geohde said...

That is wonderful news :)

And fwiw, my betas never quite doubled and I seem to be having twins. It can rise more slowly and be perfectly normal,

J

Ms. Planner said...

I hope the never ending rollercoaster begins to be a bit more fun and less scary for you. So happy to hear your news! Hope you can take it one day at a time and remember that today, you are pregnant!

Abby said...

Wow, so glad to hear about your BFP! I would say that beta is pretty fracken close to double, was your blood taken at that same time each day??? Anyhow, Congratz!

Carrie said...

It is very close to doubling and betas don't always double.
I wish it was more straightforward but then what ever is?
Hoping for you.

Sitting in Silence said...

Hey congratulations...

As you know I have been following your blog for ages....

So happy for you !

serenity said...

CONGRATULATIONS!!!! great news!

DaisyCake said...

how's it going?! I've been checking for an update!

Sarah said...

this sounds like wonderful news but, er, i'm a little worried that you haven't posted again?? hoping all is well...

Dagny said...

CONGRATS!!!!!!!!!

Robin said...

I hope all is well. You were in my thoughts this weekend.

megan said...

just checking in. . . everything okay over there?

Karen said...

Your betas were great, but you haven't UPDATED!

InfertileMadWoman said...

Umm hello??? Starting to get worried over here!!!! Let us know how you are sweetie!!!!!!!!

Dreamer4agift said...

Looking in to see how it's going?? You're in my thoughts!

Jen said...

Wishing you all the best and hoping everything goes well!

decemberbaby said...

Hmm, this post was months ago. How are you doing now?

Sarah said...

just checking in.....

Sassy said...

How are you? I hope you're okay. Please post soon.

InfertileMadWoman said...

I am worried sweetie, how are things??????

christina(apronstrings) said...

update! we are worried.

InfertileMadWoman said...

HELLO??????????????

Been thinking about you sweetie!!!!

Please let us know you are ok!!!

Rebel

InfertileMadWoman said...

I really am Hoping that things are ok with you sweetie.... I just wanted to wish you a very Merry Christmas.

Hugs,
Rebel

christina(apronstrings) said...

she might hate me, but you all should know that she had a most healthy and beautiful little........boy!!!!!!