Saturday, May 12, 2007

so much for taking a break

The urge, the wemustdoitNOWitistherighttime, hit me like a ton of bricks last night. I don't know why. I am no longer scared, worried about what might happen - well, yes, I still am, but not MORE than I want to do it - the big one - IVF.

I spent a lot of time last night on IVF connections Atlanta board reading patient referrals of doctors and clinics in my area. And, it turns out I might be right where I need to be. My clinic is the most affordable (which I know should not be my deciding factor, but I have to admit, the $8,000 difference between mine and the one I was considering is certainly an issue) and the shared risk program at my clinic actually allows for more FET's. Ha! I am assuming we will get that far. Who knows. Additionally, my doc got the following comments:

1. "Blunt, and a little weird, but you never have to wonder if he's sugar coating anything."
2. "Told me straight out how things were - did not get my hopes up unnecessarily."
3. "I went to him after frustration at my old clinic (the one I was considering) because they did not know how to treat my PCOS."
4. "He is a nationally recognized expert on PCOS."
5. "His bedside manner leaves much to be desired, but I don't care as long as I can get pg."

Ok. That last one was mine.

So, maybe I do have it good - I do not like sunshine and rainbows, and I do agree with the comments. And, I've been told he is a trailblazer on the treatment of PCOS.
Also, my doc does everything - from monitoring to retrieval to transfer. He answers emails on vacation. (I've never emailed him on vacation, but I've heard he does do this.) You are also assigned a nurse that stays with you the entire treatment cycle and beyond. And they always call me ASAP to answer any trite and silly question I have. I thought these things were the norm, but at the big fancy clinic, it is not. You rotate through the nurses and doctors, and I do NOT like the thought of that. So . . . yeah.

I am on day 17 of a ???? cycle, I don't think I've even ovulated yet. I saw some weird EWCM-esque stuff for a couple of days, but who knows what that means. For me, it doesn't mean a lot. So, I am calling next week to get it all going.

Holy crap!

We are really going to do this thing.

P.S. I finally used spellcheck. Hooray for me!

P.P.S. C, I have two more weeks with the little buggers. I am actually going to miss them! This happens every year. By Feb/March, I am pulling my hair out and I cannot WAIT for the summer, and then May gets here, and I realize I am going to miss them. I am probably going to cry the last day of school or something silly like that.


Carrie said...

That's a big decision! Good for you. It's hard to admit that maybe IVF is the way to go , isn't it?
I like the sound of your clinic too.

As for the class the I can't stand them/ oh no I'll miss them thing! Happens every year. I know it does but I also never think I'll like my next class as much as the one that'd leaving. Weird.

The Oneliner (Christina) said...

holy cow i'm behind. i think we may head to IVF sooner rather than later, too. Congrats for you. Hey, i forgot have you had the misacarriage panel done? i think you have...but if nt you shoudl before IVF, because most of those things are treatable.

hey, i'm dying to know what clinic you go to and how its less than the other. $8,000. OMG if that's emory...i'd love to know it.

don't about the little ones. you need a break.

My Reality said...

I don't think I would care if my doctor was blunt and had crappy bedside manner if he knew what he was doing. If you are comfortable with your doc, then I think you have the right clinic.

decemberbaby said...

I'd take an expert over a warm-fuzzy doctor anyday. Sounds like you're in fabulous hands. I'll be following your journey and rooting for you!

megan said...

that's great that you're feeling some confidence in your clinic and are ready to move forward! i'll be keeping it all crossed for you! scary as it may be, you definitely sound ready.

Sarah said...

congratulations, it must be a relief to feel like you have a path forward, and not only that, but to be reassured you're on the right one. best of luck with IVF. it's not so bad. it ain't fun, but in my opinion, it beats frustrated infertile feeling like you're getting nowhere.

Bumble said...

Hey Tipsy, so glad you're moving forward and you're right, as long as he gets you pregnant, the rest doesn't matter. But he does sound good though!! x

Ms. Planner said...

That is awesome and completely reassuring that you have such a great source and a lot of resources to choose from in you area.

I echo what the Oneliner says on the m/c panel. And BEST OF LUCK to you!

Kindly, Ms. Planner

peep said...

Congratulations on your decision. I agree about the bed side manner. I'd rather have honesty even if it's brutal sometimes. Good luck!

Baby Blues said...

Go girl! I'm rooting for you. Joining you in the big league too.