So obviously I chose to blog. I hate going into my dark, icky basement to get on the treadmill. I call it Cat Pee Cave. This is for two reasons:
1. the litter box is down there
2. my cat does not regularly use the litter box, instead deciding to pee under the desk which is directly behind the treadmill. Yes, I know this is really gross. There's not much I can do, although I've thought of spreading dog hair under the desk. You know, because cats hate dogs? That's pretty nasty too. So I don't know. Whatever.
I worry that I'm doing some kind of permanent damage to my lungs inhaling the fumes.
But really, it's not that bad. I just use it more of an excuse to not go down there and run, I much prefer to go outside, but right now, due to lovely metformin, not so much an option. I'm not much of a woods squatter. Eeew.
The Metformin induced sprinting has subsided a little bit. I stopped taking anything else (like prenatals and calcium supplements) yesterday thinking maybe it was all just a little too much for Mr. Tummy. I don't know why, but I always think of my stomach and associated parts in the system as male.
I fantasize about the day when I can stop taking it AND have a healthy baby. I honestly cannot imagine what it must be like to just get pregnant because you want to, without having to endure metformin, miscarriages, belly shots, butt shots, dildocams, disconnected Drs. (what? maybe my RE? oh? did I just say that out loud? darn.), thousands of $$ gone, early ass morning appointments that you rush to because you don't want to be late for work, every other FREAKING day for weeks on end, blood draws and the associated bruising, (i LIKE wearing short sleeves in July, thank you very much), yes, you could say I'm at the end of my rope, two years in to this mess. And, if one more well intentioned person asks me "Now, WHY don't you want to do IVF? That seems like your best shot." Right, because it's a guaranteed healthy baby at the end.
Wow! I guess I'm a little more frustrated than I realized. And to think I woke up in a fine mood this morning. But, I do feel better. Now down to Cat Pee Cave.